I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day and explaining that with my personality, I've never experienced real depression. I know that it can be crippling, and I know that I have never been that bad off (thank the universe). But what I'm going through now is as close as I seem to get. He pointed out the fact that I seem to feel things very intensely when I do feel them. Right now I just don't.
I'm just majorly blah.
I hate being blah.
I've been trying to break out of this by switching up my music, my wardrobe, my routine; I've been making conscious efforts to meet new people and go new places; I accepted a promotion at work and am going to training for that. Hell, I've even tried revisiting the people that helped put me in this rut.
NOTHING has worked so far.
Extreme times=extreme measures.
New game plan: Until the end of the year I will
-create something every day. I know that I am letting my talents sit idly by as I watch trash TV. No more.
-not eat out. Unless it's a family dining experience or a date situation (ew, dates...)
and
-study one new subject every week. I don't care what the subject is, whatever I'm feeling at the time.
Here's hoping that this has some effect....
AROHA y'all
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| I will try and keep this in mind. |
