Commitments...

So, I probably still haven't snapped out of my rut. This is taking forever.
I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day and explaining that with my personality, I've never experienced real depression. I know that it can be crippling, and I know that I have never been that bad off (thank the universe). But what I'm going through now is as close as I seem to get. He pointed out the fact that I seem to feel things very intensely when I do feel them. Right now I just don't.
I'm just majorly blah.
I hate being blah.
I've been trying to break out of this by switching up my music, my wardrobe, my routine; I've been making conscious efforts to meet new people and go new places; I accepted a promotion at work and am going to training for that. Hell, I've even tried revisiting the people that helped put me in this rut. 
NOTHING has worked so far.
Extreme times=extreme measures.
New game plan: Until the end of the year I will
-create something every day. I know that I am letting my talents sit idly by as I watch trash TV. No more.
-not eat out. Unless it's a family dining experience or a date situation (ew, dates...)
and
-study one new subject every week. I don't care what the subject is, whatever I'm feeling at the time.

Here's hoping that this has some effect....

AROHA y'all

I will try and keep this in mind.

Buddha

 

Amen Buddha.

Aroha

PLATEAU

Sometimes life just seems like this:

I think that they call this a plateau. (Actually, I think that they call it being in a funk, but I don't like that saying at all really.) We've all been in this place, where nothing is working out.

I know that it passes.

I just sure wish it would hurry!

AROHA

Cranes Dancing...

I find that my life tends to be on the same cycle as the seasons.

During the summer I'm eager to experience life and completely immerse myself in relationships and everything that is happening in that moment. It's fantastic really. But summer only lasts for so long, as does my "live in this moment and don't worry about anything" mentality.

Don't get me wrong, I like to try and live my life in the present moment all of the time. But summer is for no schedules, late nights, bon fires and beer, not for worrying about the future, taking care of your spirit and rejuvenating your soul.

Then fall hits.

As the last remnants of summer slipped away a few weeks ago, I took a step back to evaluate where I am in my life; I came to the conclusion that I am completely out of balance.

I have not meditated once this summer.
I haven't thought about cultivating any sort of spirituality in the last 6 months.
I haven't cleaned out my space at all since spring cleaning. (If you know me, you know that I don't keep things around for memory sake, I toss anything that I don't need or that I don't find beautiful.)

It's clearly time to re-center.

The fact that it's the first day of October is a happy coincidence.

The next 31 days of my life will be dedicated to putting myself back on a path of inner acceptance and tranquility, because I fully believe that the chaos that I'm experiencing in my life is a direct result of not taking care of my spirit and letting my ego take over for the last 6 months.

I like to think that I'm starting the month off on the right foot by visiting the Dancing Crane with my sister and one of my very closest friends today. In case you've never been to the Crane, GO! It's my go to stop to stock up on everything soul enriching, spirit awakening, or third eye opening.

October is going to be awesome.

Aroha

Summer...

"But summer had a way of making her smile and feel happier. It was sort of amazing how for those months of summer she always believed in herself and all that she could be."

-Unknown-

Eureka!!

This time of year suddenly makes such perfect sense...

AROHA



Be Heard

I'm fully aware of the fact that there are people out there who criticize this group and the movement that they're creating.

Get over it.

These people are doing more for human rights than any of us have in our lifetime. I say we step up and help out. Whether you believe in the actual organization or not. Stop thinking of yourself and finding fault with everyone, get out and let your voice be heard.

After all, we are just one big family. We have a responsibility to look out for each other.

AROHA

(See you all April 20, 2012-8 pm at the Utah state capitol. Bring your fliers!)